Hi there! It’s been quite some time since you’ve heard from me. I do apologize, but I’m back and with some exciting news – there’s a baby in my belly! Still cannot believe it! I am growing a human. How crazy is that?!
I wanted to come back here and change up the content a bit – mostly because I want to document this stage of my life.
Today I’ll be writing about my first trimester, which I just completed, but first, let’s take it back to our journey and the day we found out!
Peter and I had been trying for about six months to get pregnant, and honestly, I was starting to get a bit worried. Other people were getting pregnant on their first try and here I was six months in and no baby. I have heard so many stories of women having a hard time bearing children and I have such a heart for that. I don’t know what it’s like to go years with this struggle, but in the small 6 months of trying, I began getting discouraged and stressed. Being a mom is the one thing I’ve always known I wanted to be when I grew up. The thought of that possibly not happening scared me. But once again God proved to me that nothing is ever in my timing and that His timing is perfect. If you are struggling with child birth, I’m sorry that this is your journey right now. There are no easy words for this… In my waiting I held on to this verse – Daniel 3:18 “and if not He is still good”. I refused to let my need and desires determine the power of my God.
On November 24, 2018 I woke up feeling like it was time to check if this was the month I was finally pregnant. I had been feeling like I was for a few days, but was too nervous to pee on a stick one more time and see a “negative”. I kept holding off and telling myself not to get my hopes up. But that morning I woke up, marched to the bathroom, and decided I had nothing to lose. Peter was still sleeping and had no idea I was about to do this. I didn’t want him to hear me say “nope, no baby” one more time so I decided to do it on my own. The time between peeing and the results appearing on the stick seemed to have taken hours! And there it was … a plus sign. I screamed out “I’m pregnant!” and Peter stumbled out of bed to come see. I think we hugged, I don’t really remember that part – all I know is that I suddenly became worried again and decided I needed to take two more tests, haha…
Our First Encounter With Baby
Our first appointment to finally confirm we were pregnant felt like it took ages. We had to wait until I was 8 weeks (I was about 4 weeks when I took the test). I had no idea what to expect and I was pretty nervous. When the doctor said “that’s your baby” my heart melted. There baby was … a raspberry sized little blob in my belly that suddenly changed my whole life. Then we heard baby’s heartbeat and everything became so real. I am growing a baby in my belly, what the heck! I can’t understand how people don’t believe in God after experiencing this miracle. We proudly took home baby’s first picture and stared at it in disbelief for a few hours.
Christmas was around the corner, so we decided that this would be the best time to tell our families that there was an addition on the way. I purchased t-shirts for our nieces that said “big cousin” and wrapped each one individually. We then told everyone to come around because we had a special gift for the girls and had each open their boxes at the same time. It was cute to hear them read out “big cousin” and have to think about it for a few minutes before realizing what that meant. Emma and Sofia had already previously asked me when I’d be pregnant and how much longer before the baby was out. Of course the rest of the family was overjoyed. My sister isn’t an aunt yet so I knew she’d be happy to know she’d become a “titi” in a few months. Our nieces then proceeded asking us questions as they looked at the ultrasound astonished at how small it was. Emma and Sofia went through all the boy and girl names in their school as suggestions for baby. Hailey and Morgan curiously asked where the baby was. Hailey said to me “I hope it isn’t a boy, they pee with the bathroom open!” I didn’t ask where she got this idea from, haha.
I was most nervous about the nausea. I am typically very easily prone to nausea and was worried being pregnant would only enhance that. Thankfully, that wasn’t the case in my first trimester. I was nauseas about three times but only once did any physical actions come from that (no need for details on that). I did and am still experiencing a lot of exhaustion and hunger. An exhaustion I can’t explain. It makes perfect sense though, from the outside I don’t seem to be doing anything that should be causing this exhaustion, but inside, my body is like an industrial factory putting a baby together! I’m doing very little differently in my day-to-day and yet baby is developing something new every week – my body just knows exactly what to do and how, and that is mind-blowing! When the doctor showed us the umbilical cord, I literally thought “where’d that come from and how did my body know to create that!” JESUS. My faith has become so much stronger these last few months knowing that this is how he created us to be, a masterpiece of unexplainable proportions. I was created for this.
Overall, I’ve been feeling good aside from the exhaustion and constant hunger. Food wise, I have been pickier and eat smaller portions more frequently. Fruit has been my favorite snack, or anything fruity. I haven’t been able to snack on cookies or crackers or things of that nature. Jello, raspberries, strawberries, apples and peach fruit snacks have been my favorite! I’m very happy about that. Pizza was always a good idea prior to pregnancy and I am happy to report that this has continuedthrough my first trimester. My love for hamburgers has suddenly taken a turn but hopefully that will change. Milkshakes have also been amazing.
I am so excited to be on this journey, cannot wait to see my belly grow and to start feeling baby move inside of me.
First trimester down, on to the next one!