You’re a freshman in high school now. Can’t believe how far ago that was for present Sara! I won’t tell you your exact age right now but know you’re closer to 30 than you have ever been. Anyway, as I’m writing this I’m actually on an airplane on the way to Florida. Yes, you still hate flying and that will stop you only once from getting on an airplane. You’ve got to forget about being in control of every situation and go for it. Explore and see knew things. You wont regret it! Also sitting next to you on this flight is your husband, you did good *wink* but we’ll talk more about that in a bit.
I say this all to say that you’re going to be ok. Enjoy high school don’t get caught up in any drama. Just learn and get involved in as many good things as you can. I do want to warn you about that one English sub teacher that won’t know a word of English. Don’t get annoyed by that. He’s probably just trying to get by and was offered this job. Let’s talk about friends.
There will be lots of amazing people in your life. Great friends. You’ll have some friends that you’ll think will last forever. I’m sorry to say that some friends will only last you till the last day of senior year. Other friends will last you many years after that and eventually you’ll grow apart. There are two friends though that will always be there. My advice to you is don’t put labels on friends. You know that whole “best friends forever” craze? Yeh, don’t do it. The truth is that friends will come and go. Don’t get me wrong, they’re important. They’ll teach you about trust, they’ll bring lots of laughter into your life. Every friendship will serve a purpose. They’ll be perfect for that season. The best friend you can have is a friend that won’t always tell you what you want to hear. They’ll be honest and raw but in the most loving way. Family though, they’ll always be there. Love them more. Bond more with your sister. She’s a friend forever. Your mom, you’ll argue and get on each other’s nerves but love her. Love her hard. Your dad will always be your first love and you’ll compare every man you ever know to him, that’s a great way to find your husband.
Now let’s talk about school. Learn as much as you can. Be a sponge. Ask questions. Don’t be shy to ask and to answer when you know the answer. You’re smarter than you think you are. Enjoy being in school. Working isn’t as easy, believe me. Less responsibilities and more time for naps – please take naps while you can. When you get to college follow your heart. Don’t feel like you can’t do it. You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you. Don’t overthink your future. It’s in the right hands. Don’t switch your major because you want to make other people prouder. You’ve got to be happy. Don’t worry about what other people will think. Believe in yourself more. I know you don’t hear it enough, but I am so proud of you. You’re doing great. Don’t be so hard on yourself. Keep your head up buttercup.
That brings me into the next part, love yourself. I know you’re stubborn and can stand up for yourself when you know you’re right. What I need you to remember is that you’re amazing. Inspire yourself. Be creative. Don’t apologize for being emotional, for loving with all your heart. Allow yourself to be uncomfortable. Do what you think you can’t do.You’ll quickly learn that growth doesn’t happen in your comfort zone.
Boys… they’ll be there. Just work on you. You’ll think you’re in love but loves much deeper than that. Don’t give to much of yourself because you’ll lose yourself in that. You’ll lose your standards. You’ll lose your passions. Don’t regret it, every season has a lesson. Grow from it. Cry it out. Write this down – your value doesn’t decrease based on someones inability to see your worth. The moment you really and I mean really surrender your dreams and desires to God you’re going to suddenly find yourself again. You’ll find real love. You’ll find a man who will choose you everyday. In the meantime, love yourself.
14 year old Sara, love Jesus with all of your heart. That’ll be what will sustain you. He will be your life source at your most broken moments. Seek Him and search Him. He’s got a whole lot of promises He wants to share with you. See yourself the way that He sees you – fearfully and wonderfully made. Live out loud for Him and don’t be afraid to share what Hes doing, there’s lots of people in your life that need it.
Oh one more thing, don’t fret over your curly hair! You’ll get the hang of it. Embrace it girlie!!!