Guys, today is my birthday. I turn 29. This is crazy. I am almost 30. How? I literally feel like I am still in my early 20’s trying to navigate life without completely falling apart. I still don’t know how to change a tire or cook a typical Portuguese cod fish dinner – things I think qualify you being almost 30. How is this possible? I only realized how old I was turning this week and the feeling was strange. I don’t want to be dramatic, who am I kidding, drama begins now –this is crazy!
Anyway, when I turned 25 I literally cried. It was the weirdest thing. I wasn’t where I wanted to be at that age so the reality of turning 25 and not being at the stages in life I thought a 25 year old should be at really upset me. Today at the tender age of 29 I don’t feel that way necessarily. I have learned that everyone is different and everyone goes through stages differently. This is my story and this is how God intended it to be. I have accepted that and completely trust that Gods plan is greater than mine. What I am feeling is just the realization that I am getting older and that time is flying. It’s the thought that I hope I lived out my 20’s in the best way possible. It’s also the thought that I am glad that I am leaving my 20’s soon cause let’s face it, your 20’s are an adventure with high mountains and low valleys.
Year 28 has been a definite year of growth and that’s honestly the best way to describe it. I have never had the best confidence in myself, it’s always been a struggle for me to believe in myself. At the age of 28 it was like God needed me to realize more than ever that I can and that I am enough.The idea that God loves me became really real. The simplicity of something I heard my whole life, that Gods love for me was abounding became more real to me this year than any other. He pushed me out of comfort zones, literally pushed me. In removing me from comfort zones I began to see my strengths and I began to believe in myself. He showed me how appreciated I am and how loved I am to the point that it became overwhelming to hear and all I wanted to do was cry it out. It’s amazing when you realize that more people believe in you than you actually believe in yourself. God’s love is real people. 28 was a scary year for me in the sense that I felt feelings and I felt doubts like never before but it was also such a life changing year because I began to see Sara the way God might see her. I am still learning to believe in myself, it’s still a process for me, but its more familiar to me than ever before.
I took some time this week and jotted down some of the lessons I learned at 28. I kept it to only 28 but believe me there is so many more.
1. I can’t change people but I can change the way I react to them.
2. Some things can be done even if you don’t feel like you’re ready or capable of doing them.
3. Expectations are the root of all heartache.
4. I LOVE hosting people at our home.
5. A cleared sink allows for good cooking.
6. I can serve the Lord by serving others.
7. I’m pretty funny. (that made you laugh … see?)
8. I love sparkling water, like it’s a necessity.
9. Your beliefs don’t make you a better person, your behavior does.
10. God has called me to a life of significance.
11. I am addicted to watching English YouTubers.
12. Comparison does kill your joy.
13. I am enough.
14. Joanna Gaines and I would be the best of friends, she just doesn’t know it yet.
15. I am definitely a type A personality. I like to get things done.
16. Home ownership is a blessing but it’s also a lot of work.
17. I can’t make everyone happy and making sure that I am happy and that my home has an atmosphere of joy is more important.
18. Jesus is a comedian.
19. I do not enjoy grocery shopping and am so grateful that online grocery shopping exists.
20. I am so blessed to have the amazing husband that I have. He’s loving, loyal, a hard-worker, funny AND HOTT.
21. I actually enjoy baking.
22. People love to share their opinions even when you really don’t want to hear them.
23. I love visiting new places, especially cozy places.
24. Dreaming has no age limit. I want to dream so big that it takes supernatural faith to see it pass.
25. People love to complain about everything. Note to self: don’t be that person.
26. I have amazing people in my life.
27. Not knowing how to do something is OK.
28. Taking mental sick days are well deserved random days to just indulge in being home.
I am excited and all together frightened to be a 29 year old. I can only imagine the new responsibilities that will come with adding 1 more year to my life. Let the adventure begin!
Be blessed, 29 year old Sara (WEIRD.)